Monday, December 21, 2015

Time

I'm not sure either, how long am I going to take for this healing process. Hewhew

Nevermind, just want to share that I still can't get enough of I Need U, I mean, the live version is amazing, the slow jam ver is also daebak, not to mention the japanese ver, their pronounciation is awesome seriously, the melody, I like every bits of the song. I've listened to every possible version that I've encountered, and it was all amazing. Dope. Really.

The fact that the MV consist of story related with butterly prologue and RUN MV, dang it. And how the story unravels itself into a butterly effect, it's pretty clear. The boys knew what are they doing with their life, when I'm still contemplating of what I want to pursue after I've graduated.

Nah, I don't wish to finish what I was talking above there, besides I Need U, I strongly suggest you guys to listen to Let Me Know. Talking about this song, I fell in love with this song the first time I listened to it. The melody, Taehyung's voice echoing singing the first verse. It was on a live performance, I google-ed the translation lyrics to get a picture of what emotions is flowing with the song. The lyrics caught me off guard, it was about a lingering feelings, incomplete, a song of sorrow and broken hearts. That's when I knew I'm going for weeks humming Let Me Know. And it's proven. I still love the feelings that I get when I listen to Let Me Know, for real. I thought my feelings were unreal, but then it wasn't. Min Yoongi just put my thoughts, my insecurities, my feelings into words. He even said himself that it was his favourite track in Dark and Wild, and I'm proud (hewhew) to be his fans and literally falling head over heels for his lyrics. Oh yes, I forgot, PARK JIMIN'S FALSETTO is no joke. He did it even better during live performance, how can I unstan these dorks  . They can be goofy at times, but on stage. WOW. Really. They showed the best of them on stage, that's why I sometimes I hate them. It's jealousy doing the part. How did they even - they're perfect, they have an alternate persona, they works wonder, they did a really good jod.

Their hard work certainly pay off. Without fail. I hope I can be like them someday, I will work hard towards my dream. I'll be proud of myself and I'll be patting my shoulder, saying I really did a good job too. Thanks to BTS for inspiring me. :)

Home

Hi. Erm. It's good to be home. So amirah just finished doing my hair just now, yeah. And it is nice, she rarely does this thing actually. (And if she does, it usually ended up in a simple ponytail) hahaha i snap a photo of myself but haha I'm not going to post it here ofc. Kuangkuang. Bye.

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7 Years of Love

Kyuhyun's voice never disappoints, have you guys listened to his latest song? Seriously, I liked it the first time I listen to it. At Gwanghamun, ahhhh this song title reminds me of Sassy Girl Chun Hyang tbh. But that park name was Gwanghallu. It's about the same tho.

7 years of love, brings plenty of memories duh, I can't remember much but I've liked Kyuhyun since I was 14, back in my high school time. I remember I did a Super Junior folio for our music class assignment ahahha we were so into Super Junior that time, me and Jasmine. His voice range is so broad I had a really hard time singing this song because some part, the bridge is really out of my reach. He can go from low range to falsetto easily duhhh, not to mention the smoothness in his angelic voice.
Me:  Breathless. Stop.

Monday, December 14, 2015

Rindu

But why?

"She's my another half"

But how?

"I just know, and the fact that I only realized how much she meant to me after she left. It was devastating. I only have the slightest chance to meet her, again,"

You can meet her.

"Yeah, and the fact that she reminds me of someone that left me, long time ago, someone dear to me. It's hard when you know you didn't appreciate her presence back then,"

What are you planning to do now?

"I don't know, I just hope I don't forget this feelings I have for her. I just want to miss her, no matter how long, I want to keep on missing her, and him"


Sunday, December 13, 2015

Let Me Know

Waiting
For a while
and now that I look back
I've lost track of time
Searching for you

The memories that was carved upon my hearts
In the midst of the silent nights
All I can hear
Is your whispering voice
Singing to me
Sending chills down my spine
Your innermost thoughts
Where can I find you?

Loneliness caught onto me
Awake from dream
Suffocating
I don't want to be back
to reality

Where you're not there

Friday, December 11, 2015

Hello

Me:  Hello
The other side (1):  Hello ara ara ara
 The other side (2): Ara, ara ara dia tau tak *blablabla*

Pastu mak bisinglah. Suruh panggil kakak

//repeat for the next call//

Thursday, December 10, 2015

Don't fall in love with her

Don't fall in love with her
For you don't know what you've gotten yourself into 
For one moment she's the girl that can 
laughs out loud as if the world was hers
but another
Turns into a little monster, that kept hidden 
her greatest fear

Don't fall in love with her
For you might find yourself falling hard into
her strongest charm, which you find yourself can't resist
For you might went crazy with her
knowing how scattered her mind is

Don't fall in love with her 
For she might be oblivious to your presence
Too immersed in her guarded worlds
She will keep all her thoughts of you 
replaying it again and again when is reminded by you

Don't fall in love with her
You'll find it hard for yourself
Knowing how she tried to erase every flawed memories of you
Being hard on herself, blaming herself 
for all that has happened. For trusted you
She will always find love
underneath the shits that you threw at her

Don't fall in love with her
She will want to understand you 
The good and the bad
She will want to remember you
The one that you think embarassing
Your random thoughts that struck up at 3am 
Your quirks and remarks
Keeping it in between her notes. Smiling
Wondering what's there for more

Don't fall in love with her 
You'll be ashamed. Just like everyone else
Knowing how she is
For how she's fallen for you
Gave you her all
Her hope, her dreams, her loss and her thoughts


Don't fall in love with her

12月 7

A love to kill

"I love you so much and it's killing me.
I've fallen so hard and before it could crushes me, I need to back off.
I hope I can still survive, this little piece of me that's left."


12月 9