2018 is coming to an end. And this is the first post for this year.
I'm happy. Probably the main reason I didn't update my blog so much anymore.
Which is good.
I'm happy
Saturday, December 22, 2018
Friday, May 19, 2017
그 미소를 | That Smile
I think this is the first time I’m missing someone. I’m actually longing for someone presence for real. It’s hard. Longing for the expression he made when I leave crude remarks, the time we would spend just talking about nothing and everything.
It’s unfair to miss someone when you’re anything but happy, but it’s overwhelming to know that he’s one of the others that can make you happy just by being with him, at the thoughts of him.
Should I tell to him? Should I say it upfront?
How you would always be by my side and we just sit there, talking endlessly. It made me happy and I’m glad to have met you. And I miss you. Will we ever meet again someday?
The stupid me always forget that time never stops and life goes on. You have your own way, and I have my own. Even though mine have seem to stop sometimes ago, you always have a future ahead.
Selfish of me to think that things can always go back to how they used to be.
It’s okay. I’ll probably forget this too, just like the other times.\
It’s unfair to miss someone when you’re anything but happy, but it’s overwhelming to know that he’s one of the others that can make you happy just by being with him, at the thoughts of him.
Should I tell to him? Should I say it upfront?
How you would always be by my side and we just sit there, talking endlessly. It made me happy and I’m glad to have met you. And I miss you. Will we ever meet again someday?
The stupid me always forget that time never stops and life goes on. You have your own way, and I have my own. Even though mine have seem to stop sometimes ago, you always have a future ahead.
Selfish of me to think that things can always go back to how they used to be.
It’s okay. I’ll probably forget this too, just like the other times.\
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Tuesday, May 9, 2017
Faded blooms
It's not easy to forget
They carved their way in my memories
once resurface opening up to more
Sometimes they go away
but it's good to be remember traces of it
"You don't feel sad at all, are you?'
And petals of blue and green made their way on my skin
""I feel sad looking at you"
Well, all I've been feeling is numb
and they won't disappear
Maybe if I had just step up that time
I won't be writing this again
And again
And again
3:12AM 170510
They carved their way in my memories
once resurface opening up to more
Sometimes they go away
but it's good to be remember traces of it
"You don't feel sad at all, are you?'
And petals of blue and green made their way on my skin
""I feel sad looking at you"
Well, all I've been feeling is numb
and they won't disappear
Maybe if I had just step up that time
I won't be writing this again
And again
And again
3:12AM 170510
Saturday, April 29, 2017
Disillusion | Song Review
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I’ve been on a slump these few weeks. I usually much prefer bubblegum pop from Orange Caramel or kpop/hiphop on most days but these are what I’m listening to recently. So now I’m turning to slow jazz, mellow and OSTs and I’ve decided to write a review for these as I’m in the mood to let out my thoughts. It’s pretty mixed up, ranging from Korean, Japanese and English songs.
09. Interlude ; Dream, Reality by Agust D (From Agust D) (Released : Aug 2016)
For those who don’t know Agust D is, he’s actually an alter ego of Suga from BTS, an idol rapper from Korea. Idol rapper, producer, composer, writer yeah he is. He released his first solo mixtape Agust D last year and I’m listening to Interlude because of the soothing quality, short yet meaningful beats to it. How the lyrics only mention dream but it keeps clouding my mind of what I’m chasing of, what I’ve been achieving so far. I reflect a lot when listening to this track.
7 Years of Love - Kyuhyun (7년간의 사랑 - 규현) (Released : 2009)
My favourite piece from Kyuhyun. No 2 is Smile. This may be the uptenth times people mentioning but Kyuhyun’s vocal in this ballad is really no joke. Instead of conquering the melody, he blends his bass voice naturally in soothing and calm manner. I remember writing down the lyrics back in 2010 when I was in highschool but the tone is too low for my voice. :/
I should have known better. The lyrics spoke from the view of a man who’s in love with the same person for seven years. But a person’s heart changes over time and the lady is getting married to somebody else and he’s crushed. Well, I don’t believe this kind of love exist actually. “Out of sight, out of mind” - Delightful Girl Chun Hyang ep 1.
Like I’m gonna Love You - Jasmine Thompson (cover)
The original has a more upbeat to it. I much prefer Thompson’s cover as it go along with the hopeful and sorrowful lyrics. “I woke up in tears with you by my side, a breath of relief and I realized. No. We’re not promised tomorrow” I can say it’s a song of promises, of everlasting love and comfort towards your significant other.
The Moon and Sixpence - LUCIA ( 달과 6펜스 - 심규선 (Lucia) 루시아 ) (Released : Nov 2015)
The sixth track from Light & Shade ch. 2, unlike most songs, the part that stuck to me the most and keep reverberating in my mind is the first verse. I don’t particularly like the chorus because it is too loud for my liking. But until the transition (bridge) it’s really good and I keep replaying them over and over. The adlibs at neoreul ango isseodo, neon yeogi oepgo geueureumgwa really is my favourite. I also want to highlight the high class vibes this song gave me, similar to Ophelia where it reminds me to the Renaissance Era. Unfortunately I can’t find the translation anywhere so I was only depending on my limited korean language to understand the meaning of The Moon and Sixpence.
Inside Out - The Chainsmokers (Released : Apr 2016)
I first listen to this when I was in my friend’s car during its earlier release.. It’s obvious that I’m not up-to-date with English songs.from how I didn’t know who The Chainsmokers at that time. Back to Inside Out, I love this song. Even as I’m typing this, I can’t relate myself more to songs other than Inside Out. Actually the lyrics can be quite creepy to certain people, it depends on the listeners’ perspective though. Peeking into someone thoughts and loving them despite their dark and negative sides. It’s kinda satisfying for me. It’s like having a Park Soo Ha in your life, it’s good when you’re not fond expressing your negative emotions easily. Not much words is needed if someone is willing to peek at your thoughts like that. But again, it’s not really possible *sigh
Even though the lyrics is repetitive, the beat is really addictive. But somehow, Inside Out is pretty underrated compared to other The Chainsmokers’ release. I personally find Inside Out to be better than Closer or Don’t Let Me Down but that’s my honest opinion. It differs with person and I respect that.
I think a lot about my little sister when I listen to Inside Out, she appears strong but she really has a fragile soul, I can only watch her bearing all the negative thoughts and listen to her. My hope is to take away the pain from her, be the Park Soo Ha for her.
Love in the Ice - DBSK/동방신기 (Released : Aug 2007)
“Unmei no Itazura”
I’ve listened to both Korean and Japanese version but I find Japanese version to be more appealing to me. The feel is much more intense when listening to the live version, their powerful vocal and the meaningful lyrics. It’s magic. The melody gives off magical vibes and sorrowful feelings, I was moved to tears even without understanding the lyrics on my first time listen.
Wake Up - BTS (Released : Dec 2014)
I rarely see people talking about Wake Up, or any of BTS’s Japanese release. It dies down as soon as the hype start. Maybe because it’s their Japanese album and it doesn’t count in Korean chart so people just..leave them behind? I wish more people listen to Wake Up because it’s so underrated. It has a dreamlike feeling and addictive beats to it, telling us to open our eyes and start chasing our dreams no matter what it takes. Rap Monster’s ‘Just keep on and on and on’, the chorus ‘Open your eyes, the time is running out’, it’s an urge. Kind of lyrics that is a trademark for most of BTS songs, but is delivered in a smooth jazz with rap in between, instead of hip hop like usual. It’s a new style for them - note that this song was released in 2014 - and the melody is painfully beautiful I’m still in awe. The instruments and the slow beats to it, accompanied by Jungkook, Jimin and V’s adlib. Really one of my all-time-favourites.
I’ll wrap up here as I came across Spring Day line distribution video on Youtube and I forgot what I wanted to write earlier. Just need to listen to Spring Day, on loop. Yes. And in Spring Day by the way, J-Hope’s harmonizing with the vocal line at the chorus is leaving me speechless. I did not realize it was him, I noticed the distinct slightly low voice, but I did not expect it to be J-Hope’s. O.O
FIN
I’ve been on a slump these few weeks. I usually much prefer bubblegum pop from Orange Caramel or kpop/hiphop on most days but these are what I’m listening to recently. So now I’m turning to slow jazz, mellow and OSTs and I’ve decided to write a review for these as I’m in the mood to let out my thoughts. It’s pretty mixed up, ranging from Korean, Japanese and English songs.
09. Interlude ; Dream, Reality by Agust D (From Agust D) (Released : Aug 2016)
For those who don’t know Agust D is, he’s actually an alter ego of Suga from BTS, an idol rapper from Korea. Idol rapper, producer, composer, writer yeah he is. He released his first solo mixtape Agust D last year and I’m listening to Interlude because of the soothing quality, short yet meaningful beats to it. How the lyrics only mention dream but it keeps clouding my mind of what I’m chasing of, what I’ve been achieving so far. I reflect a lot when listening to this track.
7 Years of Love - Kyuhyun (7년간의 사랑 - 규현) (Released : 2009)
My favourite piece from Kyuhyun. No 2 is Smile. This may be the uptenth times people mentioning but Kyuhyun’s vocal in this ballad is really no joke. Instead of conquering the melody, he blends his bass voice naturally in soothing and calm manner. I remember writing down the lyrics back in 2010 when I was in highschool but the tone is too low for my voice. :/
I should have known better. The lyrics spoke from the view of a man who’s in love with the same person for seven years. But a person’s heart changes over time and the lady is getting married to somebody else and he’s crushed. Well, I don’t believe this kind of love exist actually. “Out of sight, out of mind” - Delightful Girl Chun Hyang ep 1.
Like I’m gonna Love You - Jasmine Thompson (cover)
The original has a more upbeat to it. I much prefer Thompson’s cover as it go along with the hopeful and sorrowful lyrics. “I woke up in tears with you by my side, a breath of relief and I realized. No. We’re not promised tomorrow” I can say it’s a song of promises, of everlasting love and comfort towards your significant other.
The Moon and Sixpence - LUCIA ( 달과 6펜스 - 심규선 (Lucia) 루시아 ) (Released : Nov 2015)
The sixth track from Light & Shade ch. 2, unlike most songs, the part that stuck to me the most and keep reverberating in my mind is the first verse. I don’t particularly like the chorus because it is too loud for my liking. But until the transition (bridge) it’s really good and I keep replaying them over and over. The adlibs at neoreul ango isseodo, neon yeogi oepgo geueureumgwa really is my favourite. I also want to highlight the high class vibes this song gave me, similar to Ophelia where it reminds me to the Renaissance Era. Unfortunately I can’t find the translation anywhere so I was only depending on my limited korean language to understand the meaning of The Moon and Sixpence.
Inside Out - The Chainsmokers (Released : Apr 2016)
I first listen to this when I was in my friend’s car during its earlier release.. It’s obvious that I’m not up-to-date with English songs.from how I didn’t know who The Chainsmokers at that time. Back to Inside Out, I love this song. Even as I’m typing this, I can’t relate myself more to songs other than Inside Out. Actually the lyrics can be quite creepy to certain people, it depends on the listeners’ perspective though. Peeking into someone thoughts and loving them despite their dark and negative sides. It’s kinda satisfying for me. It’s like having a Park Soo Ha in your life, it’s good when you’re not fond expressing your negative emotions easily. Not much words is needed if someone is willing to peek at your thoughts like that. But again, it’s not really possible *sigh
Even though the lyrics is repetitive, the beat is really addictive. But somehow, Inside Out is pretty underrated compared to other The Chainsmokers’ release. I personally find Inside Out to be better than Closer or Don’t Let Me Down but that’s my honest opinion. It differs with person and I respect that.
I think a lot about my little sister when I listen to Inside Out, she appears strong but she really has a fragile soul, I can only watch her bearing all the negative thoughts and listen to her. My hope is to take away the pain from her, be the Park Soo Ha for her.
Love in the Ice - DBSK/동방신기 (Released : Aug 2007)
“Unmei no Itazura”
I’ve listened to both Korean and Japanese version but I find Japanese version to be more appealing to me. The feel is much more intense when listening to the live version, their powerful vocal and the meaningful lyrics. It’s magic. The melody gives off magical vibes and sorrowful feelings, I was moved to tears even without understanding the lyrics on my first time listen.
Wake Up - BTS (Released : Dec 2014)
I rarely see people talking about Wake Up, or any of BTS’s Japanese release. It dies down as soon as the hype start. Maybe because it’s their Japanese album and it doesn’t count in Korean chart so people just..leave them behind? I wish more people listen to Wake Up because it’s so underrated. It has a dreamlike feeling and addictive beats to it, telling us to open our eyes and start chasing our dreams no matter what it takes. Rap Monster’s ‘Just keep on and on and on’, the chorus ‘Open your eyes, the time is running out’, it’s an urge. Kind of lyrics that is a trademark for most of BTS songs, but is delivered in a smooth jazz with rap in between, instead of hip hop like usual. It’s a new style for them - note that this song was released in 2014 - and the melody is painfully beautiful I’m still in awe. The instruments and the slow beats to it, accompanied by Jungkook, Jimin and V’s adlib. Really one of my all-time-favourites.
I’ll wrap up here as I came across Spring Day line distribution video on Youtube and I forgot what I wanted to write earlier. Just need to listen to Spring Day, on loop. Yes. And in Spring Day by the way, J-Hope’s harmonizing with the vocal line at the chorus is leaving me speechless. I did not realize it was him, I noticed the distinct slightly low voice, but I did not expect it to be J-Hope’s. O.O
FIN
Saturday, January 2, 2016
Fi rants
I'm allowed to see things, feelings that others can't see. I'm able to read between the lines, but somehow I'm too afraid to react onto that. afraid that I might cross my lines and goes too deep into their inner self. Probably because I hate it when people get too involved into my inner thoughts too. I'd rather not let them watch me at my weakest point.
I would want to reach you, assure you, talk to you, let you open up every much of yourself to me, no matter what I'll listen. I know you'll need to talk to someone, and here I am. Sorry for not asking when you're not okay, it's not that I don't notice or I don't care. I'm just afraid to be rejected, I'm just afraid of hurting you even more and not react as expected from you. Human beings are so fascinating, why would they acted this way, and that, why people tell lies? Why would one kill? I don't understand that. A reason is needed to kill, but a reason is not needed to save a life, isn't it? Why would people get angry at the little-est things? Why do she sheds tears so much? I want to know the reasons, there must be something that has happened at one point of their life that triggered them for their actions. I believe that there is reason behind all that.
Then, I have feelings too, it's so stupid when I have a large circles of friends but none of them happens to know what's really into me. I guess I did a very good job concealing I guess. I'd never reveal myself to others, but I did several times, but the aftermath feelings was terrible. It's a fail. Nobody cares, they ought to defend themselves then, and they judge. Its quite a contradict to how I perceive feelings in others and myself.
Yes, I live in my own world, my own fantasies. I have my own thoughts and obviously I think differently from yours. I'm not the same as you guys, I tend to forget tiny details, I procrastinate, a lot. There's so much things running in my brain that I forgot all those. If it interest me, I will love it and get utterly obsessed. If it's not, I just won't give a damn about it. It's just so hard coping in with so much things that doesn't interest me, trying to put an effort on those tires me. I crushed my self-esteem. being different from others. I wish for someone to just hold my hands and lead me all way long and won't be disgrace at silly things I did. I just want someone to hear me. Notice me.
I would want to reach you, assure you, talk to you, let you open up every much of yourself to me, no matter what I'll listen. I know you'll need to talk to someone, and here I am. Sorry for not asking when you're not okay, it's not that I don't notice or I don't care. I'm just afraid to be rejected, I'm just afraid of hurting you even more and not react as expected from you. Human beings are so fascinating, why would they acted this way, and that, why people tell lies? Why would one kill? I don't understand that. A reason is needed to kill, but a reason is not needed to save a life, isn't it? Why would people get angry at the little-est things? Why do she sheds tears so much? I want to know the reasons, there must be something that has happened at one point of their life that triggered them for their actions. I believe that there is reason behind all that.
Then, I have feelings too, it's so stupid when I have a large circles of friends but none of them happens to know what's really into me. I guess I did a very good job concealing I guess. I'd never reveal myself to others, but I did several times, but the aftermath feelings was terrible. It's a fail. Nobody cares, they ought to defend themselves then, and they judge. Its quite a contradict to how I perceive feelings in others and myself.
Yes, I live in my own world, my own fantasies. I have my own thoughts and obviously I think differently from yours. I'm not the same as you guys, I tend to forget tiny details, I procrastinate, a lot. There's so much things running in my brain that I forgot all those. If it interest me, I will love it and get utterly obsessed. If it's not, I just won't give a damn about it. It's just so hard coping in with so much things that doesn't interest me, trying to put an effort on those tires me. I crushed my self-esteem. being different from others. I wish for someone to just hold my hands and lead me all way long and won't be disgrace at silly things I did. I just want someone to hear me. Notice me.
Monday, December 21, 2015
Time
I'm not sure either, how long am I going to take for this healing process. Hewhew
Nevermind, just want to share that I still can't get enough of I Need U, I mean, the live version is amazing, the slow jam ver is also daebak, not to mention the japanese ver, their pronounciation is awesome seriously, the melody, I like every bits of the song. I've listened to every possible version that I've encountered, and it was all amazing. Dope. Really.
The fact that the MV consist of story related with butterly prologue and RUN MV, dang it. And how the story unravels itself into a butterly effect, it's pretty clear. The boys knew what are they doing with their life, when I'm still contemplating of what I want to pursue after I've graduated.
Nah, I don't wish to finish what I was talking above there, besides I Need U, I strongly suggest you guys to listen to Let Me Know. Talking about this song, I fell in love with this song the first time I listened to it. The melody, Taehyung's voice echoing singing the first verse. It was on a live performance, I google-ed the translation lyrics to get a picture of what emotions is flowing with the song. The lyrics caught me off guard, it was about a lingering feelings, incomplete, a song of sorrow and broken hearts. That's when I knew I'm going for weeks humming Let Me Know. And it's proven. I still love the feelings that I get when I listen to Let Me Know, for real. I thought my feelings were unreal, but then it wasn't. Min Yoongi just put my thoughts, my insecurities, my feelings into words. He even said himself that it was his favourite track in Dark and Wild, and I'm proud(hewhew) to be his fans and literally falling head over heels for his lyrics. Oh yes, I forgot, PARK JIMIN'S FALSETTO is no joke. He did it even better during live performance, how can I unstan these dorks . They can be goofy at times, but on stage. WOW. Really. They showed the best of them on stage, that's why I sometimes I hate them. It's jealousy doing the part. How did they even - they're perfect, they have an alternate persona, they works wonder, they did a really good jod.
Their hard work certainly pay off. Without fail. I hope I can be like them someday, I will work hard towards my dream. I'll be proud of myself and I'll be patting my shoulder, saying I really did a good job too. Thanks to BTS for inspiring me. :)
Nevermind, just want to share that I still can't get enough of I Need U, I mean, the live version is amazing, the slow jam ver is also daebak, not to mention the japanese ver, their pronounciation is awesome seriously, the melody, I like every bits of the song. I've listened to every possible version that I've encountered, and it was all amazing. Dope. Really.
The fact that the MV consist of story related with butterly prologue and RUN MV, dang it. And how the story unravels itself into a butterly effect, it's pretty clear. The boys knew what are they doing with their life, when I'm still contemplating of what I want to pursue after I've graduated.
Nah, I don't wish to finish what I was talking above there, besides I Need U, I strongly suggest you guys to listen to Let Me Know. Talking about this song, I fell in love with this song the first time I listened to it. The melody, Taehyung's voice echoing singing the first verse. It was on a live performance, I google-ed the translation lyrics to get a picture of what emotions is flowing with the song. The lyrics caught me off guard, it was about a lingering feelings, incomplete, a song of sorrow and broken hearts. That's when I knew I'm going for weeks humming Let Me Know. And it's proven. I still love the feelings that I get when I listen to Let Me Know, for real. I thought my feelings were unreal, but then it wasn't. Min Yoongi just put my thoughts, my insecurities, my feelings into words. He even said himself that it was his favourite track in Dark and Wild, and I'm proud
Their hard work certainly pay off. Without fail. I hope I can be like them someday, I will work hard towards my dream. I'll be proud of myself and I'll be patting my shoulder, saying I really did a good job too. Thanks to BTS for inspiring me. :)
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